Aya’s Litre of Tears

“As I think about the past, the tears will come out. Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don’t even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.”- Aya

I’ve heard from my friends that watching 1 Litre of Tears (1 Litre no Namida) would really make you cry like literally a litre of tears. So I had made a mental note on including it in my Thou-Shall-Not-Watch list. I used to dislike watching heavy drama series cause they’d make me feel depressed for at least a couple of weeks thus making it difficult for me to move on. But last week, just for no particular reason, I decided to watch it with my family. My friends were right, the show was indeed so emotional that it moved me to tears. I felt awful! But I’d still say that it was one of the best shows I’ve watched. I’ve learned some important lessons from it.

First, that life is unfair and that there is nothing we can do but to accept that. We can keep asking questions like why it has to be us? Or what if it had been different? But as much as we’ll never really know the answers, we also can’t do anything to change it. So whatever it is that life throws at us, no matter how hard and painful it may hit us, the best way to deal with it is to accept it first. And from there, we’ll learn to be brave to face it. Just as Aya cried a litre of tears when she found out about her illness, we can also cry even more than a litre if that’s what it’ll take to ease the pain and frustration. After all, crying is a way of facing reality.

“I really don’t want to say things such as ‘I want to go back as how things were before.’ I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.”- Aya

Second, that no matter how unfair or miserable life may be, we should still value it. Why do we keep fighting to overcome the challenges in the first place? We do it to survive, because we want to live. So despite the big problems we face, we shouldn’t forget the most important thing. –We are alive. We’ll never know what exactly’s going to happen tomorrow, or the day after. So we shouldn’t let the big problems conquer our life today. We should always remember that aside from the bad things, there are a lot more good things in life. We musn’t allow the darkness to blind us. Instead, let it be the reason to make the good things even brighter.

“What’s wrong with falling down? You can always stand up again. If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me… I’m alive.” -Aya 

Third, instead of wishing life to be better, we should be thankful of what we have now.  Some people have it worse. We should celebrate and make the most of what we have. Just recently I discovered a lump on my neck and found out that it’s goiter. I was so devastated. For a moment, I questioned God for the challenges He’s been giving me and my family recently. I thought my life couldn’t be more miserable. But after watching 1 Litre of Tears, I realized that some people have problems that are way bigger than mine. Challenges that I wouldn’t even know how to handle them myself. After some consultations and tests, my doctor confirmed that it’s not very dangerous and that it can be treated with medication. I felt so relieved. I realized that I overeacted. I don’t know what else life would throw me but, I’m sure of one thing. I’ll be braver and stronger next time. That no matter how ugly the problems may be, life would still be beautiful. Aya’s litre of tears taught me this.

“Even though I have been hurt before by those heartless glares, this also helped me to understand that around me, there still exist some gentle glares. Therefore, I definitely won’t run away. That’s what I’ll do. Definitely. Always.” –Aya

Shocking Deaths in The Vampire Diaries Season Finale

SPOILER ALERT!!!

One word to describe The Vampire Diaries Season 3 finale is– SHOCKING! There were deaths that I didn’t see coming. I honestly did not expect to see Klaus getting staked and Elena drown to death. All throughout the third season, Elena, Stefan, Damon and the rest of the team, had tried different ways to kill Klaus but our beloved Original Hybrid always managed to outsmart them. I couldn’t expect less from my favorite, and probably the hottest villain I know. The season finale was by far the best episode of this series. Watching it once or twice is not enough. I wanted to know for sure that I did not miss anything out.

Again, I have to say that I was not ready to see Klaus get staked. So when dark Alaric successfully staked him through the heart, I was like– NO!!! I swear I could have screamed louder than Rebekah if only I didn’t have to worry about people thinking that I’ve gone mad. So, my poor Klaus died which means, Tyler, Stefan, and Damon, would eventually die as well. On the other hand, if I remember it right, I think it was Damon’s blood used to turn Caroline. So I wonder why Caroline was only worried for Tyler. She was supposed to die too along with them. (Somebody, correct me if I’m wrong.)

With Klaus’ death was the possible doom of the Salvatore brothers. Hence, Elena had to make her choice between the two. She chose Stefan. (Of course, she did! Duh!) She might have developed some feelings for Damon but she never stopped loving Stefan. She said this to Damon over the telephone since she was headed back to Mystic Falls where Stefan and the rest of her friends were. She tried consoling Damon by saying, “Maybe if I’d met you first…” But it was then shown that she actually met Damon first. This revelation was unbearably painful to me. Damon did make an impression on Elena. To think that she even flirted with him on their first meeting! I wonder how Elena would react when she remembers everything that Damon compelled her to forget.

Elijah and Rebekah mourned the death of their brother, wondering how it was that the Salvatore brothers were still alive. Little did they know that our super witch Bonnie casted a spell to protect Klaus, who’s now possessing Tyler’s body. I was actually celebrating when I found out that Klaus was not dead after all. But I prefer seeing Joseph Morgan play the role.

And then the last shocking moment of the season finale was Elena’s death. It was also the most touching scene for me. Because of Rebekah’s doing, Elena and Matt drove off  the Wickery Bridge. While underwater, Elena had flashbacks of what happened when she was in the car crash with her parents. Stefan came to save her but she insisted that he save Matt first, which then lead to her own death. Damon then came rushing to the hospital where Elena’s body was taken. Meredith told him about what she did to help Elena recover from her serious head injury earlier that day. She had given Elena some vampire blood which means, she’ll come back to life as a vampire. And then goes the last scene, a dead Elena suddenly gasping back to life. After seeing that scene, my first thought was, “Breaking Dawn ba etech?!” 😀

Wish I Knew Marilyn

“I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and for my talent.” – Marilyn Monroe 

I wasn’t really interested in the life of Marilyn Monroe until yesterday when I saw the film, My Week with Marilyn. I know that Marilyn Monroe is one of the famous icons in international entertainment but I didn’t really know much about her. I’ve heard that the cause of her death was suicide. I didn’t know about the controversies surrounding her death, and neither about the difficult life she had. I was surprised to see in the movie a Marilyn who was different from the one that I’ve always had in my head. Watching the movie made me very curious about her that I spent long hours online last night, reading about her life. Knowing more about Marilyn has made me admire and respect her not only as an actress nor as a famous icon, but also for being who she is behind the glitz and glamour of Hollywood. It makes me sad thinking about how her life ended but I hope she has found the true love and happiness that she deserves wherever she is right now. Time may pass but Marilyn Monroe will always be remembered and will serve as an inspiration to many.

Happy Easter Baby

Since today was Easter Sunday, most families in my hometown were probably off to the beach. But as for me and my family, we decided to head downtown. We don’t usually go out together on weekends so today was pretty special. We planned on going to church in the morning but we couldn’t make it in time for the morning mass so we decided to hit the mall first. We had lunch and did a little shopping. We then attended the holy mass at 2pm. Then we went to the barber shop for our baby’s 2nd hair cut. The first time our baby had a hair cut, he cried a lot and it was quite messy. Thankfully, he behaved well today. We’re so proud of our brave little one. 🙂

Good Friday

‘Tis the day to reflect about our life, and ask forgiveness for all our wrong doings. Born and raised in a Catholic family, I remember going to church and attending the holy mass, station of the cross and procession every holy week in my childhood and early teenage years. Back then, doing all those things in the holy week seemed so natural. I did what my parents and the elderly say that I should do. It was like if I didn’t do it, I will not go to heaven. I guess being a child and innocent then, didn’t make me question what we were doing and why. I even thought that being catholic was the normal thing and that other religions were strange and different. Nobody explained to me about people having different beliefs and religions. That’s what I get from growing up in a Catholic family and going to catholic school. When I went to college, I learned more about the world, the society, religions and more, and a lot happened since then. My holy week tradition stopped, and some of my views changed. I am fully aware about the essence of the Holy week, and yes, I do believe in God and Jesus. But I admit that I am not as religious as I was before. I go to church once in a while, I pray as often as I can, I do my best to be good and try to do the right thing and avoid hurting others. Some people think that it’s not enough but I don’t care about what they think. Life has shown me many things that made me what I am now, including my beliefs and perspective in life.

Chihayafuru Season 2, please!

Will there be a season 2 of Chihayafuru? I don’t really know but I sure wish that there will be more. The 25 episodes in the first season were just not enough! I want to know how the story will go and I want to see more of the characters so badly that it kinda frustrates me. It’s like the time when Kimi ni Todoke Season 1 ended and that I really wanted season 2 to start immediately. But at least in that case, I could read the manga so I could still find out what was going to happen next. However, I can’t find recent chapters of Chihayafuru! Where is it? If there’s anyone of you who knows where I can read the chapters after where the anime ended, pretty please, tell me! @_@

What I love about Chihayafuru?

Three things…

Karuta is a very interesting card game. I wouldn’t have known about it if not because of this anime. I know that the way it’s being played in the anime is somewhat exaggerated but still, I find it very unique and challenging. I can never play that game.

One thing that makes me want to watch an anime series is the quality of it’s animation. Chihayafuru’s animation is actually very good. The characters are drawn beautifully which makes them lovable and very pleasing to watch.

The story itself is very exciting. It’s not the type of anime where the characters are always winning the games. It has a touch of reality in it. The characters strive to be better in order to achieve their goals. As the story develops, we also see the characters grow in different ways, which intrigues me. I can’t wait too see how far they would go to reach their dreams. And not to mention, the love story- though shown subtly in the first season- is totally worth watching out for. Arata, Chihaya and Taichi love triangle? Most people seem to expect that. But who knows? Some other characters might join the party. I love both Arata and Taichi. But if I were to choose between them for Chihaya, I’m rooting for Taichi! 🙂

Please, please, please.. Pretty please.. Let there be a Chihayafuru Season 2!!!

Congratulations, Li’l Bro!

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Last March 20 was a very special day for my family. My little brother graduated from high school! We couldn’t be more proud. Seems just yesterday when he was this little boy who’d come running to my classroom when they fetch me from school. A naughty and sweet brother at the same time. Now, look how big he is! He’s even taller than I am! It’s still hard to believe sometimes. He is and will always be our baby. Pretty soon, he’ll have a girlfriend and I still don’t know how to handle that! Haha